Recently, I was asked to share my feelings about my grandma to be put into a book of remembrance for her. She was recently diagnosed with cancer and the family is coming together to share our great memories of her.
Many would think this would be an easy task to think of something nice to say about your grandma, but I was silenced. I didn’t know what to say or what good memories I have of her that haven’t been over powered by my own grudges.
It has really made me dig down deep of what I could say since I feel awful to let her leave this life thinking I didn’t appreciate her. She is my grandma after all.
I thought of the time I was in the hospital for a week and my parents were unable to stay with me the whole time (having 6 other kids to take care of). I remember my grandma coming to visit and taking care of me. She gave me a sponge bath, which I am completely embarrassed about now, but at the time was so grateful that she cared enough to make me not stink. =o) She took time out of her days to be with me. To be my grandma and take care of me, for that small act, I am very grateful for her.
Thinking about this has brought many more great memories of my grandma and has made me feel some weight lifted off.
I’m glad I was able to surface the good memories of my grandma that I had been hiding. I’m realizing how it’s the small things in life that make a big difference and make my life richer.
~Shandi
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